Save me

What I gonna wrote here I pretty sure that I'm the only one who read this....

Day by day I keep on smiling to other people, and love to see their reply my smile.... BUT! Most of it is just my Friend, thank you my friend, may God bless you. I'm sure they feel weird why this BLACKMAN smiling at me? Yes, I am BLACKMAN, I am MATBLACK... I am Black Heart... This is what they always called me last time. I keep my anger into my heart. I proud to be that last time. Kisah Lalu, lupa sajer larrr. It's ok, now my skin a bit bright right now because I'm started to use Whitening~~~

Did you know I always wearing smiling MASK so that no one will notice my anger, my feeling ... Yes, If you started to see my anger face, keep calm if I'm now angry with you, LIKE I ALWAYS SAID TO MY FRIENDS, I WONT RELEASE MY ANGER INTO OTHER PEOPLE. They innocent... But this SHIT always happen to me... What did I do to you ALIENS? I keep my anger int o my heart.....

I suddenly remember my past what happen to me when I work for other people as security for an event only.... At MMU...... There is one RACIST CHINESE GIRLS (I'm not racist) scold me because I reprimand her. GIRL or BITCH PLEASE. I'm doing my job O.K. If you angry at me, you should angry with my BOSS too.... I just do my work on what my Boss said to me and sadly, my boss also Chinese, Damn nice laaaaa.... My boss and other staff laugh at me. Is it because I'm MALAY and I should be blame here for your fault? BITCH PLEASE LAHHH..... I keep my anger into my cracking Heart..... I can feel the darkside going take over my body when I rememberd about this...

Yes, Facebook is a place where people like me should be happy.. But I'm not happy at all. What I write is what I'm the only one read it. I try to get near with you because I want to be your friend. And you just ignore me , You just IGNORE ME, YOU JUST IGNORE ME... You IGNORE ME, Ko BUAT BODOH JER NGAN AKU arrr? It is your choice to ignore me. What did I do bad thing to you? If YES< I want said Sorry. But wait, I just do bad stuff to other who are do a shit thing to me. It is true... Sorry if I'm no good at communicate because I don't have that skill... I read someone blog and she said Communicate skill is one of the important friend to get a friend. I wish I could have that skill...... She said is true... Damn true about it...... I have many friends, some of them love being friend with me, thank you for those accepted me as your friend. Others, hope you accept me as your friend.....

Fine, this is what I want said to....... Hurmmmm.... Is there anybody read my post arrr? No, there is nobody read this post or my BLOG already.... What I type all this and only one person read this, yes! it's me. Lonely guy... So here what I want to said to MYSELF. What people said, If (I feel negative, angry or everything negative, we should keep to my self....) I guess that kind of word are turn me into more BAD person actually.... What I write just now people can said (I already lose to this or my world...) Yes... Sometime I keep on talking to my self, why some people killing other people because of that people problem.... People rape someone because of the people being raped made a mistake and deny their problem..... I'm sure you are not understand what I wrote here.... I could said, Why people love made other people suffer because of the victim are the one who are made other goes crazy because of your problem. Because you are the one ask for it and you should get that because of your own mistake, do not deny your mistake and make other people goes suffer because of your STUPID arrogant attitude.... What did wrote here, I also can said it is wrong. I know.... Do not let me said it is right way to solve the problem by what I typing here...

In the end, What am I thinking right now? What am I type just now? What Kind of Joke is this? In the end what I want is I need Friend.... Thank you Thank you who accepted me as your friends, I always appreciate it and hope I gonna be your friend forever