Happy Birthday Ayah

 Yesterday is my Dad Birthday, 25th April~~~ Happy Birthday Ayah~~~ I suddenly remembered my past between Ayah (dad) and me. If I'm not mistaken, maybe my age around 9 years old. I ran away from the house because my Mom want to sebat me (caned) because I am the one make my Mom angry because I don't want to prayed... Funny thing is, I start pray to my god after my SPM (17 years old). Back to the topic, yes, I ran away from my house when 9 years old~~ (still kids~~) You know what, I ran away and I do not know where to go, and I going back to my house, but I'm not yet enter my house, I just lay down under my Dad car. Try imagine I ran away around 7 PM if I'm not mistaken and I hide under my dad during that time, mosquito everywhere... (yes, till now mosquito everywhere coz I can feel the mosquito suck my yummy blood~~~ PIAP!!!) Back to the topic, I hide under my dad car and seen my Big bro going out from the house for praying at Surau(mosque), then my I see my Big bro enter the house and I heard my Big Bro conversation with my dad, I heard my dad said this, Along ada jumpa A'an kat pondok? That is what I heard and yet I keep quite only. I skip my Dinner~~ I skip my revision~~~ Untill mid night, I saw my big bro going out again to search for me and I seen my dad going out too. Off course they never find my out there because I'm under my dad car~~~~ Yes, from that moment I realize that my Dad love me~~~ He look for me everywhere, ask for neighbor to look for me.. From that moment , I feel why did I do this? (back to the TOPIC) until I seen my big bro near with me, I just make a sound (cough cough (puffff)) and yes, my big bro notice me and let my dad know bout this. THE END~~~~~

Sorry Ayah for that day, I promise it wont happen again~~  

Sorry Ayah coz tak dapat hadir Potong Kek Ayah coz A'an kat Johor Bahru..... Hope next year saya sempat lagi menyabut Birthday Ayah aku~~~~

Thank you for everything~~~ Thank you Ayah~~ Love you~~~ Happy Birthday Ayah~~~~( I know my dad won't read this blog) Happy Birthday Ayah~~~~ Love You~~~~ A'an here will make Ayah, or my family feel proud one day~~~ This is my promise 

There is a lot more stories~~~~ Lot more ~~~~ But only this I would like to share ~~~

(love your Dad no mater what, and yes, Our mom too)





Psssttt, this is not my drawing~~~ I can't draw nice like this~~~

Thank you

Even though I don't have fans who like or love my drawing, yet I keep on trying and trying to get at least one Hardcore fans. I know my drawing style differecnt with others, no Handsome guy or Bishin, no Cute or Kawaii Girl. No Cute Animal or whata ever it is..... I won't let that fact that can make me give up.... I start Drawing since I was little and yes, I produce my own comic when 7 years old... Meaning, on that time I already produce my own character.. Till now I still remember those character..... Arghhhh....... No people like my Art, Ok.... I will try my best to get my own fans.... Azhan Bin Ahmad...(AZHUNT) I trust you no matter what happen to you..a.k.a me.....

Save me

What I gonna wrote here I pretty sure that I'm the only one who read this....

Day by day I keep on smiling to other people, and love to see their reply my smile.... BUT! Most of it is just my Friend, thank you my friend, may God bless you. I'm sure they feel weird why this BLACKMAN smiling at me? Yes, I am BLACKMAN, I am MATBLACK... I am Black Heart... This is what they always called me last time. I keep my anger into my heart. I proud to be that last time. Kisah Lalu, lupa sajer larrr. It's ok, now my skin a bit bright right now because I'm started to use Whitening~~~

Did you know I always wearing smiling MASK so that no one will notice my anger, my feeling ... Yes, If you started to see my anger face, keep calm if I'm now angry with you, LIKE I ALWAYS SAID TO MY FRIENDS, I WONT RELEASE MY ANGER INTO OTHER PEOPLE. They innocent... But this SHIT always happen to me... What did I do to you ALIENS? I keep my anger int o my heart.....

I suddenly remember my past what happen to me when I work for other people as security for an event only.... At MMU...... There is one RACIST CHINESE GIRLS (I'm not racist) scold me because I reprimand her. GIRL or BITCH PLEASE. I'm doing my job O.K. If you angry at me, you should angry with my BOSS too.... I just do my work on what my Boss said to me and sadly, my boss also Chinese, Damn nice laaaaa.... My boss and other staff laugh at me. Is it because I'm MALAY and I should be blame here for your fault? BITCH PLEASE LAHHH..... I keep my anger into my cracking Heart..... I can feel the darkside going take over my body when I rememberd about this...

Yes, Facebook is a place where people like me should be happy.. But I'm not happy at all. What I write is what I'm the only one read it. I try to get near with you because I want to be your friend. And you just ignore me , You just IGNORE ME, YOU JUST IGNORE ME... You IGNORE ME, Ko BUAT BODOH JER NGAN AKU arrr? It is your choice to ignore me. What did I do bad thing to you? If YES< I want said Sorry. But wait, I just do bad stuff to other who are do a shit thing to me. It is true... Sorry if I'm no good at communicate because I don't have that skill... I read someone blog and she said Communicate skill is one of the important friend to get a friend. I wish I could have that skill...... She said is true... Damn true about it...... I have many friends, some of them love being friend with me, thank you for those accepted me as your friend. Others, hope you accept me as your friend.....

Fine, this is what I want said to....... Hurmmmm.... Is there anybody read my post arrr? No, there is nobody read this post or my BLOG already.... What I type all this and only one person read this, yes! it's me. Lonely guy... So here what I want to said to MYSELF. What people said, If (I feel negative, angry or everything negative, we should keep to my self....) I guess that kind of word are turn me into more BAD person actually.... What I write just now people can said (I already lose to this or my world...) Yes... Sometime I keep on talking to my self, why some people killing other people because of that people problem.... People rape someone because of the people being raped made a mistake and deny their problem..... I'm sure you are not understand what I wrote here.... I could said, Why people love made other people suffer because of the victim are the one who are made other goes crazy because of your problem. Because you are the one ask for it and you should get that because of your own mistake, do not deny your mistake and make other people goes suffer because of your STUPID arrogant attitude.... What did wrote here, I also can said it is wrong. I know.... Do not let me said it is right way to solve the problem by what I typing here...

In the end, What am I thinking right now? What am I type just now? What Kind of Joke is this? In the end what I want is I need Friend.... Thank you Thank you who accepted me as your friends, I always appreciate it and hope I gonna be your friend forever

Sometime I inspired from what I see

I love to design a character since little. Till now, I'm still love to draw and design a character. Bad thing is, some people always said that my character look similar with other character that already exist. Ok, maybe because I inspired from it. But, sometime I create my own character without inspired from others and yet still some of them love to find a similarity to other character even though the character don't have any similarity. Did you know how hard to design our own character? Please don't straight away blindly said the character have similar with other character that already exist. You want compare it and you want let me know about it? Fine, I'm ok with it. But there is a way how to let me know about it. I appreciate your and love to hear your comment about my art or my character design. Thank you.

Day Before FASTING Month

Day Before FASTING MONTH, Me and my Parent go back to my Grandma House at Tangkak (JOHOR) Best bout my Granma house is, I'm still can feel being KAMPUNG BOY~~~ Yeah, since my Grandma House have a huge land around the house with number of Fruit tree~~~ Yeah~~ Since the day before Fasting Month is season for Buah Pulasan bear fruit~ Well, I'm Enjoyed pick those Fruit before Fasting day~~~ Usually during Fasting day people lazy to do a work which are Heavy Duty Work or Work need to use a lot of Energy to done it. The Bad thing is, I miss the Durian season which is Week before the Buah Pulasan Fruit Bear fruit. The Lucky thing is, I'm still can enjoy the fruit called Mangosteen and Duku Langsat. Since Mangosteen Duku Langsat season on between Durian and Pulasan~~~

This fruit called Pulasan. The taste are almost same like a Rambutan
(the look also almost the same)
I love Pulasan More than Rambutan~~~~

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Oh yeah, since the Pulasan are too many, we sell it beside the busy road just for fun

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I'm sure people quite familiar with Durian, since this fruit are famous with the smell. Mostly travelers from oversea can't stand from smell of Durian. But for Malaysian People said the smell are nice~~~ BTW, since I miss the Durian Season, well this the only Durian in Good Condition, I know this Durian a bit small~~

This Fruit called Duku Langsat. Almost miss the Duku Langsat season~~~





one of the best fruit ,Mangosteen~~~ I love the taste of this Fruit~~~ Sweet~~~~ Never taste it before? Better taste it~~~ I'm sure you like it~~~

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Well, before I end this post,
HAPPY RAMADAN
~~to all Muslimin and Muslimah~~~

Luka Megurine

Finally, my order is here, Luka Megurine ( FIGMA ) if you want me to rate it, I will give 4 out of 5. Well, I'm not FIGMA Collector , but I can see the Difference between Old Figma and New Figma. Total Figma I already collected is just 2. Luka Megurine from Vocaloid and the old Figma is Yuki Nagato from Suzumia Haruhi. Something Lack on Nagato Yuki is, the joint between her hand and her Arm. Hard to Explain it. Well, at least I answer what is lack on Nagato Yuki (FIGMA). Newer version always get the high rating. Oh my God, I need to fast for 2 weeks since I already use my pocket money for 2 weeks~~~~~~ Ngehhhh~~~~~

Who Am I ?

Who Am I?

I always keep asking to my self, who am I actually? Almost everyday I keep on asking to my self, WHO AM I ? ( Almost Everyday ) Almost all the time bad thing happen to me. Where should I go now? I not even have place where should go except in my bed Room. Haaar? Bed Room? What so so so spacial about my bed room? In my own bed room, is where I can ask this question to my self ( who am I ) I don't have place where should I tell my problem . I don't have any body who are willing to listen my problem ( maybe there is people who are willing to listen my problem but there must be a reason why should I avoid to let others know about my real problem ). Is it all people are in same situation like me? yes, maybe just a few people who are in the same situation with me.

Again, who am I? Am I perfect human? Obviously is NOT. I'm not perfect..... I got a big problem in ENGLISH, I'm sure you all notice bout my English language. My grammar are totally terrible until someone can't even understand what the HELL I'm talking about. Yet, I TRY MY BEST to solve my English problem, If not..... This Blog will be in Malay Language. Did you know, I already take MUET (Malysian University English Test) for 2 times, yet I fail... FAIL! Did you know how tension and depress I am? For the 2nd mark, I can't even let my Mom know bout it. If I cannot pass this test, I will not be able to graduate... OMG! This is totally one of my serious problem.......... Did you know, is hard for me to get an A in any of my subject. In my exam, I always get C... Even I hard to get B in any of my subject. Last time during SPM (Sijil Pelajaran Malaysia), if you are not from Malaysia, SPM is a one of the BIG EXAM for Malaysian Student. SPM is one of the horror thing on student life. During SPM, I just score 1 A. JUST 1 A... And did you know what is the sad thing is, I never get any A for my big Examination and this is the 1st time I get A in my life for big examination. Did you know what subject I score for that A? Is just ART Subject! Not even Mathematics or English or not even my owl Malay Language. Did you know how sad my Parent is. That was my past.

I want to have a spacial Girl friend, I always see people lovely dovey in front of me, Go ahead, is not your problem to lovely dovey in front of me. Is not your fault anyway, is your freedom. I know for those who are couple are not happy always, there is time they will argue which each other. I experience it once in my life. I know how hard it is if we start to argue or fight with our love. I know! I been dumb for 2 times. 2 times! How hurt my heart it is. Is not me who are wanted to break up, but she is the one who are wanted me to break our relationship. It's all because she found a good looking guy. To be honest, did I make a mistake? Or, what is my Mistake? Even she break with me, I know it hurt my heart , but I still forgive her on what she did to me. Some of my friends said (why did you forgive her mistake?) Hurmmmmm....... That was an old story. Already 5 years that thing happens. Still there crack on my heart. Then I try to approach to one girl when I already enter University, yet it fail. FAIL. That's why I never try to approach or try to confess it again to others. Don't want sit in my bed room for 1 day. The bad thing is, I'm not romantic person, and I am a quite person. ( That is why I being DUMB(maybe))

I want to be an Artist or Comic maker or cosplayer or even Musician, yet, I can't. You see, my drawing is not nice like other people. Comic? I can't even finish my comic and yet I already abandon my comic for how many month already. I already have the story in my head, yet I cant even express it. Plus, tell me, who want to hear the story? Who want to see it? Nobody, nobody wanted to hear the stories is, nobody ask me who is this character, nobody asking me what are this character, how the story looks like. No one care! Only 1 person who are love to hear this story, only 1. He is my Big Brother. Only my Big Brother asking me all the time. I cannot expect too much. And yes, thanks to my friends and those who are like my art work, I really appreciate it. Thanks.... I want to be a cosplayer, I can't ! Only once in my life I feel how being a cosplayer. I love it, I like it. But, I'm alone. Yet, the one that I cosplay also is one of the simple character...... i want to be a Musician, I love listen to music, yet, I can't. Tho only music instrument is HARMONICA, and yet, only one song I can play it well, but the sing is too childish. (Twinkle Twinkle Little Star) I don't have talent?

Who am I? Am I just a normal person? (maybe YES or Maybe NO) I want to be somebody, I always respect people, but people hardly to respect me. I don't want back to my old me..... What is my talent anyway? Is it because I don't have any talent? Or is it because I never meet my real talent? Who I want to be? What is my destiny? Again and again and again, who am I?

I never express my feeling like this in any places. This is my 1st time I express it and share it. Even though is just 10% of it. Please do not laugh. Thanks for reading it.